They say that bloggers should never apologize for a lack of posts, but some of you have been with me for years and the past few months is the first time I have ever gone more than a few days without posting. It turns out that losing your mother is harder than I thought, and when you combine that with a resurgent real estate market (in my other life I own a small real estate company), there has literally been no time to breathe.
All of this really combined to create an incredibly challenging Mercury retrograde period for me. Usually I sail through with a laugh – “oh yes, Mercury is retrograde. Of course these things are happening!” Mercury has been in Pisces, and I had anticipated that the Pisces retrograde would be less challenging because Pisces tends to go with the flow and find ways to swim around obstacles. Perhaps it’s just because my fingers are in so many pies right now – fixing up my mother’s house, working my real estate business, trying to take care of a limited number of astrology clients – over the past few weeks I have felt I was swimming through a morass of twisting tides that lead nowhere in particular but have kept me from making progress.
Whenever there is an experience like this, where confusion seems to reign, you can nearly always look to Neptune. Neptune purposefully casts a cloud over your life and makes it difficult to see. The purpose of this cloud is to encourage one to look within to a more transcendent experience of life and an awakening to a consciousness that supersedes the day to day world. My progressed Moon right now is nearing an exact alignment with Neptune, and my soul has been crying out for connection. “You cannot control this material world,” Neptune says, laughing. “Let go and come with me. All of your important details and things to do will be taken care of – let go and come with me to an experience of inner peace.”
Ha! Try telling that to someone with Saturn on the Sun and Mars in Capricorn – geared towards manipulating the physical world to accomplish specific goals and objectives. But the planets are teachers – they don’t give up easily. “You won’t let go? Here is a murky mist that makes it impossible for you to control your life. Surrender for just a moment and be aware of the peace of the breath that flows, like the ocean, in and out.” In those moments there is magic. In the stillness of the moment, with life churning around us, we see that we create these realities with our minds and we can direct their flow just as easily from a place of relaxation as a place of stress.
Mercury retrograde periods are designed for this, and when you combine Neptune with a Pisces Mercury retrograde there is no other option other than to let go and learn to trust. I know from working with my clients that cultivating trust in the Universe to coordinate and unfold exactly what is needed is one of the hardest things to do. Sometimes we just have to be hit over the head and be forced to find that trust because there is no other option.
There is quite a bit going on now astrologically, and we are headed into the second phase of the Uranus/Pluto square so I hope that I am beginning to find my voice again. Meanwhile I wish you all peace in the knowledge that the twists and turns of our lives really do bring us closer to Truth and Knowledge and greater peace of mind and heart.
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I haven’t lost my Mom but have lost a few close cousins unexpectedly. It’s not something you ever ‘get over’, it’s something that time teaches you how to live with it. It takes quite a while. Be gentle with yourself. It may help to remember that this ‘assignment’ is only temporary and not our real home, that we see each other again-without all the dramas of this life, and in the best possible way. No one stands before the light eternal with a broken heart. EVER.
losing your mom is much harder than anyone can ever understand until it happens to them. So sorry for your loss but take comfort in memories….my mom was the initial person who sparked an interest in astrology in me…..she is with me every day….although i lost her physical presence more than 17 years ago. It gets more manageable….take comfort in that
Good to hear from you! I think too much Pisces energy is diffcult for anyone to move through, even to some one like me with tons of water and earth. Glad to know you made it through okay. Even with all my water, I had to learn to let go and get in touch with myself too. I practice Astrology on the side, and was invited to give readings at an event in L.A. There were other readers too, a pyschic, and a chakra reader. We all read each other, and both told me the same thing., I’m blocked, becoming a hermit, I have to let go. I have been laid off for 18 months and am extremely anxious about finding a job. I have just never had it so tough. Pluto has been hovering around my decendant (8 Capricorn) for about a year now and I have just about had it. I can see that I’m not in control anymore, I just haven’t accepted it yet. The next night I went to a metaphyics meeting, something I normally wouldn’t do, and asked my spirt guides for guidence. My message was that I needed to help people (Virgo sun). The next Sunday night I slept realy well, and had a dream I was teaching at a school. Since being laid off, I have been working on and off as substitue for special ed. My normal occupation is finance, but I have enough schooling to sub and have an autistic child myself, so I am indirectly qualified. But I had been blowing off the school district at times, because it was not my usually occupation and I really want regular hours doing what I know $. (Cancer rising, Moon and Saturn in the 1st , both in Cancer needs security) Anyhow, I felt so right in this dream. I woke Monday to my phone asking me to sub. It turns out, they asked me to come back for a week long assignment. Yippie! So glad! I have Jupiter in the9th in Pisces. I was reminded that I can teach and I can read these kinds of kids and access where they are getting stuck.
I am going to do all I can to get more substitute calls and do more astrology readings. I am going to let the universe (or that damn Pluto) drive for a while. But I’m going to work where I get “called.”
Don’t ever apologize Lynn. I lost my mother in 2010 and I still feel it as a dull pain. It was her birthday a few days ago. And I have been following you since 2007 just to let you know…..though I have been quiet. Take good care of yourself…
It’s good to hear from you, Lynn, though I’m sorry you have had so much on your plate to deal with. Neptune, Mercury, and our old friend Chiron have changed my life lately. My girlfriend showed up this month the very day Juno entered Aquarius, and the Sun crossed her ascendant and my IC. I think with Juno in Aquarius, her 11th house, until 2014, that this will be a more permanent relationship.
I dearly hope to get back to writing again soon myself. The story and the words are in me, but with this retrograde I haven’t actually produced anything tangible. I have it organized in my mind, so maybe with the Sun in Aries, my 5th house, I can begin to create my “brainchild.” :-)
Thanks for this post Lynn. Loosing a Mom is so hard (I know!), and with everything else going on things seem almost unbearable. You are so right in saying that there is no other option other than to let go and learn to trust the Universe. Your last line says it all. Wishing you peace, contentment, and lots of love.
lynn thank you i have been searching for an astologer i used to know and came across that picture actually that drew me in just a few words of reading though the craving connection bit especially spoke to me as they say i don t do skype yet and she wote out the transits and meanings for me but what do you charge and how does the therapeutic and healing part come into play certainly need some support and guidance at the moment though look forward to hearing from you and good luck with everything
Your retro merc. sounds like mine. I know better abt merc. i have been involved in astro since the 60’s trying to prove it doesnt work. lol I have rentals, am a stock mkt junkie plus much more nonsense besides merc being retro my solar ret. asc this year is 9cap57 with pluto 9cap26 and all the stuff in aries is conj my prog sun and prog mars…i did not need merc retro with all that so i waited til merc got going to do my taxes..ugh..too many merc things . lol i Your musings were helpful to know i wasnt alone. lollets see what uranus in aries does to all my progressions and right now i am going through neptune opp my natal moon at 3virgo51.. i must say it is very awakening regarding my emotions…thnx for your writings…Pat
The tide recedes but leaves behind bright seashells on the sand,
the sun goes down but gentle warmth still lingers on the land.
The music stops & yet it echoes on in sweet refrains …
for every joy that passes, something beautiful remains.
(It’s you)